So I literally haven’t checked my tumblr in days… and for me… that’s a big problem XD
but yeah… sorry guys if I was late responding or by some insane chance you missed my senseless rants… XP I’ll try and get back in the swing of tumblr… I didn’t really have a reason for not checking… I just wasn’t XP
but yessum…. getting back on the tumblr train…. hope you all have an awesome night :D
The whole world judges us. But they don’t know us. They don’t understand us. They’ve never been us. And those who claim they have, and left, are lying. The vow we take is one that can never be broken, and is one we never want to break. The true love we feel and give out freely is the greatest thing that the human mind could even begin to imagine. You call us out, and you base the mass of us on the errors of one. I am here to personally say sorry for that person, for perhaps the fake who takes what we are in vain, or the one of us who became confused and hurt in a world that gave no comfort. But please, don’t tear us down, because you simply don’t know us. Where in history has anything good ever come of that? Do you really feel so good about yourself when you spit at us, and call us every vile name you can think of, simply because we cannot reach the perfection you expect of us. We may be Christians, but we are still human. We still make mistakes. The whole purpose of our faith, the whole purpose of Christ and his love, was because we make mistakes. Without our mistakes, there would be no Christianity. I wouldn’t be here writing about this love that is cursed at by those who do not feel it. I ask you as a peaceful warrior, to think before you speak. You may tear us down for one thing after another, but you fail to look at yourself. What gives you the right or the superiority over us, to call us down for our smallest of failures… for the tiniest of misunderstandings. You spit at us, because you don’t know us. You curse us, because you don’t understand us. You hurt us, because you want to forget us… but you can’t. And all that time you spend taking out your anger on something you can’t understand, all we WANT is for you to understand. To take that one moment, and humble yourself for a few seconds to hear us. To understand and feel this love. We love you while you hate us. We care for you while you push us away. We will be there for you, when you abandon us. And every night, we pray that the day will come when you no longer hate us, push us away, or abandon us. We pray the day will come when you can stand next to us, smiling, and understanding who we are, because you are who we are. We wait for the day, when you stand beside us, fighting a hateful world with the greatest weapon man has ever known… Love.
I can’t possibly be the only one that heard “Shake the Devil Off” (idk…it IS a southern song) and got sooo into it that you wanted to be like “Aye Satan!! Get your butt up here.” and physically fight him…or maybe I was the only one literally stomping the ground like Whack-a-Mole was lifesize in my…
The truth is I still care and always will. I'm not the type of person to let people walk out of my life and pretend that they don't matter anymore. I may not talk to him or her but, I still care. I'm always going to think back to my life and say I wondered what happened to so and so. I hope they're alright. I will actually mean it. That is the type of person I am. Once you're in my heart, you're there forever.
and to be honest… I’m not feeling too good. Like… I just feel low. I’m in one of those teen depression things or w/e idk
not constant, its just… it comes and goes, usually from thinking about certain things that have happened to me…
but yeah here I am, sitting here, feeling low down and mentally dwelling on regrets and less then happy memories… because what else is there to do? I can either sit here and go through them in my head, or I can go to my room and try and sleep, and more then likely experience the same thoughts in a uncontrolled nightmare…
o_o gee I wonder…
so… feeling down… all regretting and crap… and I’m doing the trash while I’m in this mood, so out of pure lack of focus I nearly trip over our some five or six trash cans more times then I’d care to tell anyone. I take the bag outside and then as I’m walking back up the driveway…. I just stop.
I look up and stare at the sky. All I see is tons and tons of stars stretching to every midnight horizon. And then I see half the moon in the sky. First thought in my head, was “Dang… Thank you God.” Just total subconscious response.
And for like… ten seconds, while I was staring, I completely forgot about how low I felt and my mind just cleared for a few seconds, and I just simply appreciated the sky.
I guess thinking God has that power over us makes me feel a bit better. Can’t say I’m the happiest camper in the world right now (considering I’ve never gone camping) but…. yeah
just one of those moments I thought I’d share so that you could read (or not read) it
and then not care and be all like “cool story bro…. NEXT!” XP
My sister just stormed downstairs demanding I turn on the T.V. and complaining about what a hard day she’s having. (Let’s keep in mind she’s only 4)
Her: “I’m having a hard day.” Me: “Oh really?” Her: “Yeah because everybody is telling me to put the lids back on the markers and Mommy told me that and Daddy told me that and I didn’t want too and then Mommy threw away the black marker and that made me mad. So now I’m mad.” Me: 0_0 “Sounds rough…”
She has quite the vocabulary for a four year old XD That’s about as close to a direct quote I can get.
I’m kind of glad there’s a 12 year difference between me and her. I won’t have to be here when she hits puberty XDD
I watched I Am Sam today in the car while we made the some three hour drive home. It is an EXTREMELY good movie. I remember watching it once when I was younger and crying like a girl (no offense). I’m proud to say I only cracked one tear today watching it. I hadn’t seen it in years so I didn’t remember much of it anyway. XD
But for real, you’re probably all like “SHUT UP SPEEDY, YOU’RE A SAP!” but it really is a deep movie. It’s very very sad.
In short, it’s about this guy who suffers from mild mental disability and has the mental capacity of a seven year old. He has his daughter he tries to raise alone from her birth, and when she comes near the age of 7 to 8, the law gets involved and stuff and basically they try taking her away from him. From there it turns into a story about his struggle to try and get her back and it shows the true love between the father and the daughter. He also gets this lawyer lady to try and assist him and ends up affecting her life in a big way as well.
It is an extremely good movie, that makes many profound statements. I love it. No lie. If you haven’t seen it, it is definitely worth finding and watching.