I live. I am human. I am a teenager. I am a guy. I live for something greater. I struggle with the basics. I groan at the usual. But I keep living to do what has been asked of me.
You can call me Speedy.
I'm here to reach out to the ones I love and care for. Once in a while I'll get sentimental, or deep, and probably blog something like it.
My life has simple aims, and a difficult path to them. I deal with it the best I can.
I am Speedy. I am Christian, but do not fear me, for I will love you regardless. I guess this is the chance for anyone who cares, to see the depths of my mind, and everything it holds, dark or bright. Happy or sad.
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Posts Tagged: Faith

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Not one thing will stand between me and my God

I refuse it.

I have lied to him, cheated him, forsaken him, forgotten him, and fallen so far of where he held me.

No longer. I am done bringing shame.

God is my rock and his word is my sword and my faith is my shield.

I will defend him, no matter the cost, and when I feel broken, I will run to him and nothing else.

No person, no image, and no desire will overcome it. Not anymore.

NOT ANYMORE! I’m tired of fighting for myself. I’m tired of fighting myself.

I’ve always known what I’ve had to do and no longer am I going to neglect that.

This is my statement. This is my pledge. I’ve broken one too many, and should I feel the temptation to break it I pray God throw me to the ground to have me remember.

I am a soldier of his. I will fight like it.

I’ll come home with the knowledge that he can smile upon me for defending the faith and being there for my fellow soldiers through and through.

To anybody who knew me, knows me, or will come to know me:

This is my pledge. Hold me to it.

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Fear is something I really struggle with lately

I don’t think anybody truly understands that… not one person

Dealing with it?  Well I have two options so far:

There’s dealing with it by myself in whatever the hell kind of way I can formulate in this crazy world… and that’s secret code for I’m not really sure what the hell I’m going to do or how I’m going to do it… I just keep running from my problems that are always within me and think that if I think about how I’m going to fix it long enough it will just fix itself

Then there’s what my faith tells me to do. I shouldn’t be afraid because I have Christ with me. I should be reaffirmed by the power of his Holy Spirit.  Fear is a product of sin.  It isn’t of God. So if I fear something, than I am not trusting God’s power. For if our God is for us, than who could ever stop up, and if our God is with us, than what can stand against?  Right? So why am I sitting here so afraid all the time? Do not worry about tomorrow, for today has enough struggles of its own. Instead of being bold and fearless I am letting fears paralyze me in ways nobody can see… I’m losing in a battle against myself and my fears. And even that loss is something I fear.

But then there’s something else that allowed me to see deeper:

“There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.”

-1 John 4:18

I’m tired of being afraid.  I want to stand bold and fearless and trust what is in my future. I don’t want to be paralyzed from doing what I need to do because I am afraid of what may happen. No matter what, I have to fight through it… and what it takes to get there… I don’t think many of the people reading this really understand that either.

Hopefully I’ll figure it out. I pray most of you never have to.

That second option may not be the most popular… but I’ve realized… it’s the only one with any actual plan…

That’s my three cents

Speedy shutting up.

God Bless Our Troops

God Bless Our Troops

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I don’t think many people understand this… I don’t really  understand it myself, probably because it just seems so against me… its against a lot of humanity actually.

As Christians… what are we supposed to be?  Confident? Kind? Honest? Helpful?  All that jazz?  Well yeah… but I mean… here’s the mind bending thing…

Is what we’re actually supposed to be…..

Helpless…

Just sit and think a minute… We’re supposed to be ‘Helpless.’

Where am I getting this?

We are God’s children correct?  We should be like his children… he our father.  A child is helpless.  A child should fully rely on its parent for guidance and survival.  Without that guidance… a child would surely die…

18 At that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, “Who, then, is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?”

He called a little child to him, and placed the child among them.And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.

Matthew 18:2-3

This just occured to me out of the blue a few days ago…

It’s mind bending to me, because… I mean… all the Christian metal I listen too and all… I mean it calls for a sense of spiritual warfare and all that… and THAT MAKES SENSE… but I mean… its kind of like an afterthought… if that makes any sense to you all…

Because above and beyond all we need to be HELPLESS

Fully reliant on God… for everything.  A baby can’t do anything on its own.  Think about it.  Have you ever seen a really young child?  It relies on the parents for EVERYTHING!  It cannot survive without being helpless and guided by its parents.  It is no different with God… We must be helpless so he can guide us… otherwise… we will die… spiritually and physically.

It’s really an overwhelming thought.

Yes we can be strong and confident and defend our faith and all those things those spiritual warriors do… but it is impossible to do that without God’s presence… without his guidance… without the empowering of the Holy Spirit through God. 

We must be helpless.  We must be his children… otherwise… we will never see the glory of Heaven.

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Is this idolatry?

What about this?

Is this idolatry?

Even this?

Honest question.  Is it? O_O

I feel that sometimes (and I’m guilty of this as well) that we place a greater importance over the band than we do our own faith.  I can sit there and pound my head to all the Christian metal I can… I can literally go all day… but then… it’s getting to a point now where it’s just music.  Do I actually act on my faith like I should? Do I get into my God and his word?

No.

I have no problem getting into the band.  Checking for new albums, downloading new songs, and seeing where they’re playing next. 
But then… I rarely find myself checking out my God and where he is in my life and the lives of others…

So is this idolatry? Or just poor focus?

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Does anyone understand what faith is anymore?

Oh well Speedy, faith is obviously believing in something.

Hmm… no, not quite.

I feel like so many Christians have lost the idea of faith.  The word still holds some weight thank God, but faith, true hard actual faith, has had it’s definition skewed.

Your on the Titanic.  Screw the whole romantic story.  It’s not part of what you’re involved in.  You’re just some screwball on the boat and it’s going down…

Christ comes down and calls out to you, standing on the waters and he says “Come here.  Walk out to me.”

Would you do it? 

Oh well of course Speedy.  It happened once before!

Really… is that why?  So you’ll leave the boat and start walking on water ONLY BECAUSE, it’s been tested, proven, and recorded - at least to your ideas as a Christian.

For some reason, I’d think quite a few people would start sinking.  I think many more, knowing the story or not, would simply stay where they are, thinking they were hallucinating, thinking that this Jesus dude is absolutely crazy. 

The problem here: You’re walking off the boat because you have faith that it worked before.

NO!  NO!  NO! 

That’s not quite it people.  It’s something we all forget far too often.

Faith is absolute.  It is unquestionable.  So many Christian lack faith these days!  Far too many!  We are unworthy of the name “Christian!”  Christian is a name that used to be an insult, and the people who wore that name wore it proudly.  Where is that pride!?  Where is that strength.  Christians hide their faces these days, and if God were to call out to them in the midst of the world, I am scared too many would stay silent.

The Christians of the older days were the true icons of “FAITH.”  They spoke in tongues, imbued with the Holy Spirit, going out and preaching God’s word to all who would listen, breaking cultural, lingual, and racial barriers alike.  They were gifted with power from the Holy Spirit.  Many people think that they held this power because it was granted to them by and only by Christ.  That is incorrect.  The bible says that all who hold faith in his name and call upon it without hesitation, remaining pure and strong in their love and faith for their savior Jesus Christ will receive the power of the Holy Spirit.  It is not beyond us!  Nothing is!  God makes all things possible.  The Christians of those days cleansed the sick, healed the blind, made the disabled move again, caste out demons from a realm and power beyond them, and created a cultural movement unparalleled in all of history.  All this was accomplished, not by the power bestowed unto them, by truly by their faith in Christ alone. 

Today, where are those Christians?  DO YOU SEE THEM!?  I see few, and I see many more fakes!  Despicable fakes who seek to deceive people into believing they hold a power they do not.  We are weak.  We are faithless.  We have forgotten the words of our Father and we have forgotten the roots of our faith.  It has been corrupted by culture and politics. 

Faith is absolute trust in your God and his existence.

To pray to God, and then doubt even for a second that it won’t happen… that is faithless.  A prayer like that doesn’t deserve to be answered, but God chooses to answer anyway because of his grace and love. 

We need to be faithful! We need to find our faith!  We sit here meager and weak, living on fragile hopes and beliefs in possibilities.

NO!

There is no fragile hope.  There is no “possibility”

There is only faith.  Absolute hope.  Impossibility!

If Christ came to you on the edge of the Titanic, wouldn’t you want to be the one to say Yes, and know, not because it happened before, but that because you can do all things through Christ, your savior, who is standing there, holding out his hand, that you could walk on that water, in the midst of the chaos?

Through our faith, no enemy can hurt us, no storm can scare us, and no lies can breach us.  Death has no hold on us.

We call ourselves Christians, somebody who has total faith in Christ and that he died and rose again for our sins.

WE NEED TO START ACTING LIKE IT!

"You just need a little faith and a new set of eyes and a telescopic lens to look in and see God."

- Flame

"Relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing had yet been done."

- C.S. Lewis

Courageous Movie Trailer


Going to see this with my Dad on Thursday.  Looks really good!

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I seriously love August Burns Red.  I’m afraid to say they may be replacing Thousand Foot Krutch as my favorite band ever.  (forgive me TFK)  But all their songs are lyrically amazing and hold so much more weight.  I can feel the emotion in their singer.  They have a point to make and they want to make it well.  It’s beautiful.
Now I’m not getting all sappy dramatic here.  But it just seriously is beautiful. 

And of all the ABR songs, I’ve had the hardest time picking a favorite.  You have those weeks where you hear one song by your favorite band and then the lyrics in that one just define something really well.   There was a while where I was extremely pissed at my ex-girlfriend, because she was raising hell with all my other friends, and that raised hell in me.  You don’t screw around with my friends.  I will come after you.
And so for the longest time, I was hooked on “Leveler” (the song, not album) by ABR, because it made me think of her.  It made me think of what a big fat lie our relationship ended up being, and how much she was against me and what I truly stood for.
There’s just a song for every situation.   And they’re not afraid to voice their angers on and against all the hardest parts of the world.  All the yucky stuff about being a Christian.  The stuff alot of Christians want to ignore.   They talk about it all.  They preach the end, and they preach the pain, they preach REALITY! 

What is reality anymore?   We’re all so stuck trying to be fake.  Trying to be what society demands of us.  It makes me sick.  I don’t want to be fake.  I don’t want people to make expectant judgements of me.  That’s not me.  They don’t know me.  They have no idea who I am. 
All I want is reality.  All I want is the truth! (<=== ABR quote right there)
And the truth is so freaking hard to find anymore…
It’s depressing.

ANYWAY.  Speaking of the truth.  My whole original point of this post was merely to state that “Truth of a Liar” off of August Burns Red’s Messengers album was perhaps my favorite among all their songs, if I had to pick one. 
I guess I ended up ranting about how much their music means to me and real life though.  XD
woops…. XP

It’s all true though.  I always thought TFK was the band that got me, but now I see such a deeper heart to ABR.  Maybe it’s because I’m getting older. 
But I’m tired of standing by.  I do not lie when I proclaim I’m a warrior for Christ.  I will fight for what I believe and I will fight to defend the ones I love. 
Every force of hell, every doubter, every intellectual, every judge, hater, deceiver, and liar can come after me.  I will not fear you.   I stand in the army of God, and you have all lost. 
Face me, and by the end of our battle, you will be destroyed. 
Those are not my boasts.  That is the boast of God. 
That is someone you will never prove wrong.



“Long Live The King!”




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