I live. I am human. I am a teenager. I am a guy. I live for something greater. I struggle with the basics. I groan at the usual. But I keep living to do what has been asked of me.
You can call me Speedy.
I'm here to reach out to the ones I love and care for. Once in a while I'll get sentimental, or deep, and probably blog something like it.
My life has simple aims, and a difficult path to them. I deal with it the best I can.
I am Speedy. I am Christian, but do not fear me, for I will love you regardless. I guess this is the chance for anyone who cares, to see the depths of my mind, and everything it holds, dark or bright. Happy or sad.
Read my thoughts or leave them, they are yours to criticize.

Posts Tagged: die

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Whoever invented the timed question blocker thing needs to go die.

he speaketh the truth…

he speaketh the truth…

(via wa1king-disaster95)

Source: weheartit.com

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Burning down bridges now (scatter the ashes)
Godspeed to all you’re after
Is this a life left just to remember
Tell them who you were, who you really were (hey hey!)
Kill yourself slowly over time, fashion statement suicide
She’s still asleep in a Chelsea hotel
Bad turns to worse, and the worst turns into hell

Fall asleep, don’t fall asleep
Don’t fall asleep

(God save the eyes that dim tonight)

THEY LIED WHEN THEY SAID THE GOOD DIE YOUNG!
woah-oh-ah-oh
THEY LIED WHEN THEY SAID THE GOOD DIE YOUNG!
Stay with me, stay with me tonight

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- Anberlin

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Satan Appears Before the Lord
One day the angels came to show themselves before the Lord, and Satan was with them. The Lord said to Satan, “Where have you come from?”

Satan answered the Lord, “I have been wandering around the earth, going back and forth in it.”

Then the Lord said to Satan, “Have you noticed my servant Job? No one else on earth is like him. He is an honest and innocent man, honoring God and staying away from evil.”

But Satan answered the Lord, “Job honors God for a good reason. You have put a wall around him, his family, and everything he owns. You have blessed the things he has done. His flocks and herds are so large they almost cover the land. But reach out your hand and destroy everything he has, and he will curse you to your face.”

The Lord said to Satan, “All right, then. Everything Job has is in your power, but you must not touch Job himself.” Then Satan left the Lord’s presence.

One day Job’s sons and daughters were eating and drinking wine together at the oldest brother’s house. A messenger came to Job and said, “The oxen were plowing and the donkeys were eating grass nearby, when the Sabeans attacked and carried them away. They killed the servants with swords, and I am the only one who escaped to tell you!”

The messenger was still speaking when another messenger arrived and said, “Lightning from God fell from the sky. It burned up the sheep and the servants, and I am the only one who escaped to tell you!”

The second messenger was still speaking when another messenger arrived and said, “The Babylonians sent three groups of attackers that swept down and stole your camels and killed the servants. I am the only one who escaped to tell you!”

The third messenger was still speaking when another messenger arrived and said, “Your sons and daughters were eating and drinking wine together at the oldest brother’s house. Suddenly a great wind came from the desert, hitting all four corners of the house at once. The house fell in on the young people, and they are all dead. I am the only one who escaped to tell you!”

When Job heard this, he got up and tore his robe and shaved his head to show how sad he was. Then he bowed down to the ground to worship God. He said:
    “I was naked when I was born,
       and I will be naked when I die.
    The Lord gave these things to me,
       and he has taken them away.
       Praise the name of the Lord.”

 In all this Job did not sin or blame God.

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The Book of Job
Chapter 1: 6-22
New Century Version

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That takes some real faith doesn’t it?
Could any of us… in today’s world… even hope to have this kind of faith?
I mean… let’s paraphrase this whole incident to our lives. Bad stuff happens to us. 
We get mad.  We get angry.  We’re hurt, and stressed, and tired.  We feel like we can’t take it anymore. 
Within a matter of minutes Job had everything near and dear to him eradicated from his life, and he didn’t go into a rage.  THE SMALLEST THING, can happen to any of us today, and we act like life as we know it is over.  We blame and curse God for all our problems, thinking he’s falling down on his job. 
Are we honestly that foolish and selfish?
If you guys haven’t read the book of Job, seriously go read it now.  It’s not terribly long, and I’m about halfway through.  But it’s such a perfect parallel to all the struggles in life.  And struggles is something I see frequently on Tumblr.  I’m serious, even if you’re NOT a Christian, just go read Job.  Go find a bible somewhere and read it.  Preferably a newer version that makes more sense to us (which is why I love NCV and hate KJV) But throughout the rest of the book, because of all the tragedy, Job pretty much says… I want to die.  I want to die!  I WANT TO DIE!  I love you God and thank you for even my trials but I WANT TO DIE!  I mean, it really is quite powerful, and something that can be easily related too.  Seriously… just go read it.  If you’re too lazy for that?  Well at least take a moment to understand the power in these verses above and how they hold true to us even today. 


Speedy shutting up.

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Go die in a dark, depressing, and insecure ditch where I never have to see, hear, or suffer from you again.

Sincerely,
Speedy

"And I just want to get mugged at knifepoint
to get cut enough to wake me up
cause I know that I don’t want to die
sitting around watching my life go by
and what we take from this is what we’ll get and we haven’t quite figured it out just yet
because all of us are all too stuck
strapped to a chair watching our lives blow up
stuck watching our lives blow up"

- Relient K

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nothing like coming home and spending twenty minutes or more going through the two billion posts or so that happened between now and this morning…. o.o
I have to admit though… I don’t mind it… it’s enjoyable… and I get to see some cool stuff…. and then not so cool stuff….

I feel bad though cause then I start just reblogging all these cool pictures I find and then I feel like I’m going to turn into one of those blogs that’s nothing but pictures and crap…
do you realize how few people actually sit down to blog deep, carried on, and meaningful thoughts…
i mean… not to be rude… but if I wanna see a billion pictures… I’ll go google or bing surfing.  I’m on here to hear other people’s opinions, and become their friends (not just a follower) and such and do all that other great tumblr stuff…
I would love to read a few more personal thoughts and a little less reblogs sometime is what I’m trying to say I guess.
I mean yeah I get it, someone can say everything you have to say in a single picture… but still… there’s something that in your mind.
idk… I guess i shouldn’t be saying how others run their tumblr. XP

anyway… I had a cool weekend… hung out with some good friends… had a blasty blast friday :D looking forward to a hopefully even better one this week.
finals… yeah those can go die.  they suck.
and my computer teacher beat me again at chess today -.-
blah…

but yeah… that’s my such and my thoughts…
if you read this… thanks…. you’re cool…. you get a highfive :D
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Have an awesomemacious day tumblr peepz!
God bless (: