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Okay… so I haven’t truly checked my tumblr in a few days… and as small as that seems… it’s actually kind of a big deal… and threatening…
see… after I missed out on one whole day… i was scared to check it… because I have this amazing tendency to check EVERYTHING that’s been posted since the last time I was on…. obviously I can’t do that now without breaking tumblr… because although Im only following like… some 40 people… my dashboard fills up fast…
but yeah alot of crap happened…. the last few days and I keep thinking… oh imma post about this… or imma post about that…. but I never got to it… and I can’t remember much….
the one thing I do remember is I was gonna talk about how much fun it is to clean piss stains off the bottoms of toilets… (cleaned the bathrooms this Sunday) oh joy….
but I do have one thing I want to ….
(total reasonable break…) i looked down and one of those white moths was on my shirt…. staring at me…. I had a HOLY FRAEKING $*@#$ moment….. and I just smooshed it…
( i am not making that up at all ^ the blood stain is on my shirt…)
anyway…. I wanted to talk about one thing…
whole family went to the pool this afternoon. Our neighborhood is hella big…. supposedly one of the biggest in Missouri (i said supposedly)… and we have two pools for it. We went to the theme pool (which is fancy term for the pool where all the kids go because its hella shallow (three feet or shallower everywhere except for one small five foot section) and has a water playground and lazy river and such… but I digress….
THERE IS A DEEP THOUGHT HERE… its coming… I swear…
but naturally… we go there… and there’s kids every five feet (THATS WHY THE WATER WAS SOOO WARM….. OHHH…)
(that’s not the deep thought ^)
but I swim for a bit with my little sis and taker around the river and crap…. and then I go sit down and am pretty much done and just chill in the sun…. and after about ten minutes of my mp3… i rage because its outta juice and I hate myself for forgetting to recharge… so I pull out the MO Driver’s manual and start studying and kinda listen to the stuff around me while I’m reading. and that’s when I look up and not too far off there’s these kids within easy earshot sitting on the edge of the lazy river (it was adult swim…) and they are all just talking and one of em is randomly shooting water off with his water gun. Now… the oldest kid in this group was a thirdgrader… which was the guy with the water gun… everyone else was a year or two younger…
so there’s a few of these girls sitting there talking… and then I start focusing on this one little girl… and I listen to her voice and immediately recognize this tone I hate more then life itself. The tone of one of those just straight out dittsy girly girls who is all nasal and doesn’t know left from right)
And Im sitting there at first… and quite honestly i’m like… wtf? she’s freaking six (maybe seven) How does she even know how to sound/act like that????
and THEN…. oh god… then I start listening to what she’s saying… and I pick up the words “WELL SHE’S NOT INTO YOU” (and yes with the attitude you would expect from those words) and then I hear the third grade kid and he’s like yeah…. blah blah blah… and I realize that these EARLY ELEMENTARY SCHOOL kids are talking about relationships….
again…. another WTF? moment….
What on God’s wonderful green earth could they POSSIBLY know about relationships. Seriously?!!??!
And then I end up listening/watching that one ditsy girl for the rest of the while we’re there and I swear… It’s not stereotyping if she’s playing her freaking part. She was like that the whole time…. just full of attitude. SHE’S SIX YEARS OLD!?!?!? HOW!??!?!?! WHY!!??!?!?! She even got snooty with my sis. She was walking up asking to play with them (she’s only four) and there was this one littler girl with them and the ditsy girl is all like… “Well yeah, you TWO can go play together… OVER THERE…” and even does this little sweeping hand motion
My point in all that mess of a story… I’ve always heard and read and seen stuff about kids growing up faster and faster these days… but I honestly never thought it was THIS bad. I mean… this isn’t a suicide story of a ten year old… but it still is an earth shaker to me (btw I slept through a 4.8 earthquake last night)
I heard/saw other kids today too… I saw this five or six year old boy cussing like a sailor. I saw two young boys talking like they were locker room buddies. I mean…. it all looks so wrong. We have Elementary kids trying to be High Schoolers!!??!?
honestly where does this stop? How do they even know to act like that? I mean… is it our media? Is it the state of American families? Government? school? idk… it’s sad though… and very oddly disturbing.
Every time I hear about an extremely young girl getting pregnant… I cringe. I mean…. think about it… the responsibility and severity of pregnancy… and nowadays girls as early as 11 years old can get pregnant?!??! That’s horrible!!! That’s sick!!! WHO SUPPORTS THAT KIND OF BULL!!!!!! For real… I’m getting lose here… but I’m being serious… ITS ALL FREAKING CRAP!!!
I HATE THIS WORLD…. I FREAKING HATE IT!!!
Every day I see another reason why suicide is so logical to some people. I’m not saying Im suicidal… but I don’t blame them for it anymore. There’s so much sick shit in this world. I can’t describe it any other way.
It’s morale-less, Godless, and heartless. It makes me sick. sick to my stomach.
But yeah… Im sorry for raging… and making this epic long post. And sorry for not being on the last few days (if you actually care that is, or have read this far for that matter)
But thanks to my new followers! (: thanks to all you people who follow me in general. And thank you world for being so jacked up I can write a book in a tumblr post about how you corrupt our youth. yeah…..
i think I should bury this moth 0.0 it looks so sad and dead sitting here on the floor…..
night Tumblr! :D