Fear is something I really struggle with lately
I don’t think anybody truly understands that… not one person
Dealing with it? Well I have two options so far:
There’s dealing with it by myself in whatever the hell kind of way I can formulate in this crazy world… and that’s secret code for I’m not really sure what the hell I’m going to do or how I’m going to do it… I just keep running from my problems that are always within me and think that if I think about how I’m going to fix it long enough it will just fix itself
Then there’s what my faith tells me to do. I shouldn’t be afraid because I have Christ with me. I should be reaffirmed by the power of his Holy Spirit. Fear is a product of sin. It isn’t of God. So if I fear something, than I am not trusting God’s power. For if our God is for us, than who could ever stop up, and if our God is with us, than what can stand against? Right? So why am I sitting here so afraid all the time? Do not worry about tomorrow, for today has enough struggles of its own. Instead of being bold and fearless I am letting fears paralyze me in ways nobody can see… I’m losing in a battle against myself and my fears. And even that loss is something I fear.
But then there’s something else that allowed me to see deeper:
"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love."
-1 John 4:18
I’m tired of being afraid. I want to stand bold and fearless and trust what is in my future. I don’t want to be paralyzed from doing what I need to do because I am afraid of what may happen. No matter what, I have to fight through it… and what it takes to get there… I don’t think many of the people reading this really understand that either.
Hopefully I’ll figure it out. I pray most of you never have to.
That second option may not be the most popular… but I’ve realized… it’s the only one with any actual plan…
That’s my three cents
Speedy shutting up.