I live. I am human. I am a teenager. I am a guy. I live for something greater. I struggle with the basics. I groan at the usual. But I keep living to do what has been asked of me.
You can call me Speedy.
I'm here to reach out to the ones I love and care for. Once in a while I'll get sentimental, or deep, and probably blog something like it.
My life has simple aims, and a difficult path to them. I deal with it the best I can.
I am Speedy. I am Christian, but do not fear me, for I will love you regardless. I guess this is the chance for anyone who cares, to see the depths of my mind, and everything it holds, dark or bright. Happy or sad.
Read my thoughts or leave them, they are yours to criticize.

Posts Tagged: pain

But when you come against my country
When you come against my family
You try to destroy my people
I can’t just stand by
There’s no way that I can stand by
This time, I will not stand by
I am coming, and if I come, then pain is coming with me
I’m coming, and pain will be with me

Disciple — Game On

AMURICA!

Happy rockin’ fourth Tumblrites! :D

Thousand Foot Krutch

Broken Wing

Here comes an opening, she’s gotta broken wing,
if you can feel the sting.
Take care of everything, if she can make a scene.
I’ll show you what i mean.
She pack a loaded gun, set fire to anyone,
knows how to make ‘em run.
She’s down on sixth street, she’s going sixty.
She’ll show you how to breathe.

I don’t want to see.
I don’t want to be.
I don’t wanna be anyone, anymore.
I don’t want to fake.
I don’t want to break.
I don’t wanna say anything, anymore.
Every time you walk away, I wish you’d stay,
instead of pushing further away.
Every time I hear you say “I just need one to take this pain away.”

You’re a broken wing, not a broken thing.
You can heal in time, if you try.
It’ll be okay. You can walk away, sweet Julia…

Here comes an opening, he’s gotta broken wing,
if you can feel the sting.
Take care of everything, if he can make a scene.
I’ll show you what I mean.
He pack a loaded gun, set fire to anyone,
knows how to make ‘em run.
He’s down on sixth street, He’s going sixty.
He’ll show you how to breathe.

I don’t want to see.
I don’t want to be.
I don’t wanna be anyone, anymore.
I don’t want to fake.
I don’t want to break.
I don’t wanna say anything, anymore.
Every time you walk away, I wish you’d stay,
instead of pushing further away.
Every time I hear you say “I just need one to take this pain away.”

You’re a broken wing, not a broken thing.
You can heal in time, if you try.
It’ll be okay. You can walk away, sweet Julia…

And I won’t laugh. I won’t look.
I won’t listen if you just get up.
And I won’t laugh. I won’t look.
I won’t listen if you just stand…

Every time I lie awake I wish I could take it all away.
Every time my heart breaks, I wish I could make it all seem safe.

Every time you walk away, I wish you’d stay,
instead of pushing further away.
Every time I hear you say “I just need one to take this pain away.”

You’re a broken wing, not a broken thing.
You can heal in time, if you try.
It’ll be okay. You can walk away, sweet Julia…

Destroy the Runner — My Darkness

"The pain that dwells inside have run their roots far too deep.
We swallow at the chance to truly live because we choose to hide behind suffering.
If we fight against our emptiness and battle through our many losses.
Will we have the chance to breathe again in a world that tells us we are nothing?"

- War of Ages

"

I don’t want to see, I don’t want to be, I don’t wanna be anyone, anymore
I don’t want to fake, I don’t want to break, I don’t wanna say anything, anymore
Every time you walk away, I wish you’d stay, instead of pushing further away,
Every time I hear you say I just need one, to take this pain away

You’re a broken wing, not a broken thing, you can heal in time, if you try
It’ll be okay, you can walk away, sweet Julia…

And I won’t laugh, I won’t look, I won’t listen if you just get up,
And I won’t laugh, I won’t look, I won’t listen if you just stand

Every time I lie awake, I wish I could take it all away,
Every time my heart breaks, I wish I could make it all seem safe

"

- Thousand Foot Krutch

This pain is not yours.
The depth behind this distrust breathes life from the dark side.
Born from the other side.
The depth behind, straight from behind this other side.

When others lead lives that bend the rules put in place.
This giving (this giving), this ripping.
When others lead lives that bend the rules put in place.
This giving (this giving). This weight won’t last on you.

Giving all, unconditional, this takes a pure heart.
Sweet and true, yours is of gold, the best I know.
Now it’s time to stop the over and over. Now it’s time…

Let your responsibility be the change!
Let your endurance be the change!
Born from the other side!
The depth behind, straight from this other side!

There are plenty of reminders. Don’t forget the battle has been won.
There are plenty of reminders. Don’t forget the battle is won.

You are still a diamond in the rough.
Hold true to the way that you are
and He will bring you through…
Will bring you through!
Hold true to the way that you are
and He will bring you through (will bring you through)…
Will bring you through!

Life In Your Way — Take Notes

Here comes an opening, she’s gotta broken wing, if you can feel the sting,
take care of everything, if she can make a scene, i’ll show you what i mean,
she pack a loaded gun, set fire to anyone, knows how to make ‘em run,
she’s down on sixth street, shes’s goin sixty, she’ll show you how to breathe.

i dont want to see, i dont want to be, i dont wanna be anyone, anymore
i dont want to fake, i dont want to break, i dont wanna say anything, anymore, everytime you walk away, i wish you’d stay, instead of pushing further away, everytime i hear you say i just need one, to take this pain away

you’re a broken wing, not a broken thing,
you can heal in time, if you try,
it’ll be okay, you can walk away, sweet julia…

Here comes an opening, he’s gotta broken wing, if you can feel the sting,

take care of everything, if she can make a scene, i’ll show you what i mean,
he packs a loaded gun, set fire to anyone, knows how to make ‘em run,
he’s down on sixth street, hes’s goin sixty, he’ll show you how to breathe.

i dont want to see, i dont want to be, i dont wanna be anyone, anymore
i dont want to fake, i dont want to break, i dont wanna say anything, anymore, everytime you walk away, i wish you’d stay, instead of pushing further away, everytime i hear you say i just need one, to take this pain away

you’re a broken wing, not a broken thing,
you can heal in time, if you try,
it’ll be okay, you can walk away, sweet julia…

And I won’t laugh,
I won’t look,
I won’t listen if You just get up!
And I won’t laugh,
I won’t look,
I won’t listen if You just stand…

Every time I lie awake,
I wish I could take it all away!
Every time my heart breaks,
I wish I could make it all seem safe!

everytime you walk away, i wish you’d stay instead of pushing further away, everytime i hear you say i just need one, to take this pain away,

You’re a broken wing, not a broken thing,
You can heal in time, if you try.
It’ll be okay, you can walk away, sweet julia…

Thousand Foot Krutch — Broken Wing

"

Play dead again. It just might stop before the end.
If I pretend you may not see the pain I’m in.
So close to me, can’t tell what I’m supposed to be.
Don’t stop to breathe, can’t bear to think what you might see.
This tourniquet, these blessed hands around my head
So I can keep from…

Bleeding.
I’ve got to find a way to stop before it starts.
Finding its way through my veins right to my heart.
I never thought it something everyone could see.
And it kills within me.

"

- Demon Hunter

This is the age of the dead.
The generation of pagan and self-led.
You can feel the bones shatter beneath our feet.
The blood of lust staining our teeth.

We feed on pain (pain), disorder (disorder), delusion (delusion).
The filth of the modern plague.
And in this reign of Godlessness, the heathens will say…

Tie this around your neck.
Tie this around your neck.
Tie this around your neck.
Tie this around your neck.
Fool.

Save your breath my son.
Just carry on home.
Time will prey on you and take you through Hell.

I’ve heard every empty line.
Every curse, every word that you redefine.
I will turn my back on the coming storm.
Won’t lie in the grave, I will be reborn.
They say…

Tie this around your neck.
Tie this around your neck.
Tie this around your neck.
Tie this around your neck.
Fool.

Save your breath my son.
Just carry on home.
Time will prey on you and take you through Hell.

Confusion reigns.
Pride of the hopeless herd.
Blind to the will, blind to the word.
They will drown in the rule of man.
Helpless and alone.

Save your breath my son.
Just carry on home.
Time will prey on you and take you through Hell.

They say…
Tie this around your neck.
Tie this around your neck.
Fool.
Tie this around your neck.
Tie this around your neck.
Fool… Fool… Fool.

Demon Hunter — Tie This Around Your Neck

And if you see me losing ground
Don’t be afraid to lie
I know the pain inside my heart can’t break the fear inside of yours
And if you see me losing faith
In what it means to die
Don’t let me leave before I know what lies behind the stained glass doors

Save sorrow for the souls in doubt
Bleed every care out

Will you carry me down the aisle that final day
With your tears and cold hands shaking from the weight
When you lower me down beneath that sky of gray
Let the rain fall down and wash away your pain

For every word we never spoke
We have a tear to cry
For every silence like a wall between a better you and I
So if you see me losing sight
Of all the death in life
You’ll find the peace in every time I failed to see the death in mine

Let all the fear inside you drown
Tear out the blade and lay it down
Save sorrow for the souls in doubt
Bleed every care out

Will you carry me down the aisle that final day
With your tears and cold hands shaking from the weight
When you lower me down beneath that sky of gray
Let the rain fall down and wash away your pain

Oh, the blood is rushing out
Oh, I’m better off without
Oh, the walls are closing in
Oh, sing for me again

Will you carry me down the aisle that final day
With your tears and cold hands shaking from the weight
When you lower me down beneath that sky of gray
Let the rain fall down and wash away your pain

Will you carry me down the aisle that final day
With your tears and cold hands shaking from the weight
When you lower me down beneath that sky of gray
Let the rain fall down and wash away your pain

(Rain down, oh rain down, no care for the flood)

——Description of Song——
[This song, although seemingly very sad and depressing, is in actuality a love letter to my friends and family. It is essentially something that I would want them all to know if I were to die. I ask my true friends to carry my casket down the aisle, and as they lay me into the ground, not to mourn for my soul, but rather rejoice for my salvation.

Death can be viewed as a very negative thing, but for Christians, it is where we find our true hope. Death is never something I would take lightly or toy with, but to address it I think can be very revealing. If you never spoke of the reality of death, you would be ignoring such an important part of life. This song asks my friends and family to “save sorrow for the souls in doubt,” for they know that my soul is safe.

Those who walk uprightly enter into peace; they find rest as they lie in death.
-Isaiah 57:2]

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Demon Hunter — Carry Me Down

"We are the youth of yesterday,
we’ve brought you pain and sorrow,
that’s what they say,
but they paved the way,
we are the new tomorrow"

- TFK

I’ve feared the deepest darkest secrets that live inside of me.
Defeat and tragedy, walking in shame, finding nowhere to hide.
I’ve thrown my bottles of guilt into the sea, hoping the waves carry them away from me.

Oh….

My heart is beating. I’ll never stop fighting. I’ll keep breathing…
My heart is beating. I’ll never stop fighting. I’ll keep breathing to stay
alive.

And here I go, off to make a change. I’m screaming… screaming revival.

All of my strength, all of my might, will go into this to take back my life.
All of my strength, all of my might, will go back into this to take back my
life…
…my life… my life… my life. I’m taking back my life… my life… my
life… my life… taking back my life.

Let’s go….

This song is music to my ears… (this song is music…)
and is a new production on an old stage (…on an old stage).
I won’t dwell in unhappiness (I will not dwell in…), grasping humility,
asking forgiveness.
Tomorrow is gone, I’ll start living for today. I’ll never stop the fighting and
I’ll take it all away.
Tomorrow is gone, I’ll start living for today. I’ll never stop the fighting and
I’ll take it away

August Burns Red — Internal Cannon

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Okay… even if you’re not a a metalhead like me… trust me when I say if you just listen to this whole song, and read the lyrics along… you’ll find a connection for it.  I believe it talks about something very real that is relative to ALL OF US.  We all suffer pain in our lives, but we need to overcome that pain, and pull ourselves out of it.  Nobody is going to truly do that for us.  We may get help, but ultimately, it’s up to us in the end.  By our own willpower can we overcome the things that bother us.
Also, this song breaks into some epic salsa grooves every once in a while XD

So even if you’re like “EWWW METAL! EWWW SCREAMING!”  Just please listen to it once.  And see how you feel afterwards.  I haven’t always been a fan of metal, so believe me when I say it is bearable and can grow on you.
Metal more often then not talks about real, deep, and meaningful feelings we have.  It is extremely heartfelt music, and once you comprehend that, the screaming and growling makes a little more sense.

Of course you don’t have too.  You could just read all this and be like “Nah!”  or not even read this at all and just zoom by as you go through the billions of tumblr posts on your dashboard.  It’s all up to you (:
Have an awesome day tumblr peepz!

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Our lives here on earth live for the short term.
We live burdens just for the small and temporary enjoyment that comes as reward.

Summer break for example.  Today was my last day of school.
I don’t truly feel any different.  Honestly I’m just happy I’ll get to sleep in tomorrow.

But so many kids obsess over it.  Have you listened to them before?
OH GOD CAN THE WEEKEND COME ANY FASTER!?!??!
OH ITS ALMOST SUMMER
OH ITS ALMOST CHRISTMAS!!!

I mean… I can understand the excitement.  But I feel like it’s an issue when the short moments of joy we get from these thing are ALL we Live for…
Ever heard the term “TGIF” ?  (Thank God It’s Friday)
People became so obsessed with the term and the idea they made a restaurant for it!  ok…. really?
DON’T THANK GOD FOR THAT!!!!!!!
You wanna thank God for something…. Thank God its just another day in general.  Another day you’re alive and are blessed enough to live the life you have now…
to be so blessed as to be reading this… considering you can afford a computer… and a tumblr… and to live in a developed country.

Don’t thank God for something so small and trivial.  The beauty in a butterfly is worth more praise then the fact that it’s a friday… -.-

I’m not getting pumped for something so small as what day it is. 
I think too many people put too much of their focus on too many small things.  We need to be looking bigger.  We need to look farther out.  We need to SUFFER… and wait for the greatest rewards, that last longer, and only come after much time, and pain. 

Just my thought of the day.

Have an awesome day and summer Tumblr!
God Bless (:

Demon Hunter — Blood In The Tears (Acoustic) recording
This song and Driving Nails are probably two of my favorites off their “The World Is A Thorn” album! :D
The acoustic/string mixes are the best versions, just because they put so much more emphasis on the lyrics, which are the most striking parts of both songs.